I can't sleep. Cos it just occurred to me that november is here and it's already thursday..
October just zoomed passed like that.
Sigh, late night post always end up an emo post.
We cancelled mercys work permit and re-applied for a new helper.
Gotta admit that she's not coming back for good. Damn I don't get why am I so upset when mercy is not coming back. Perhaps I still don't understand why and how years of relationship can just end like this. Without even saying a proper goodbye.
But I know she has her own difficulties and we really wish her all the best..
Yes I am sentimental and sometimes I do see this as a weakness for others to exploit but I can't deny the fact that I am one super sentimental person. When you are trying hard to be so strong outside, you ignored the fact that by doing this, it makes you more vulnerable inside. I understand how being sentimental affects me as a whole and I know it's all about finding an equilibrium. Just so because I know I have the looking at you 10 times, thinking of you 1000times and not letting you know a single thing character, I always end up confusing and contradicting myself even more. As much as I wanna say if you don't intend to stay on in my life, please kindly don't enter in the first place, I can't cos I'm doing the exact same thing. I enter other pple's lives not having the confidence that I can stay on for long. I mean who knows right, who goes around calculating the pros and cons and probability of having a long lasting relationship before befriending new friends?
But frankly I really abhor guessing work, if you really care, don't act as if you don't and when I am finally convinced that you didn't care, you say otherwise. Yes I don't know about others but this irritates me, a lot..
Ohwell don't get me wrong, it's not that someone has offended me or I'm really mad at mercy. But it's more of the thoughts that sparked off because of some recent issues..
I always believe 不要让你在呼的人觉得你不在呼..
It's only right to let pple you care know that you actually care, isn't it so?
Ha, alright time for bed, it's 2:24am already!
October just zoomed passed like that.
Sigh, late night post always end up an emo post.
We cancelled mercys work permit and re-applied for a new helper.
Gotta admit that she's not coming back for good. Damn I don't get why am I so upset when mercy is not coming back. Perhaps I still don't understand why and how years of relationship can just end like this. Without even saying a proper goodbye.
But I know she has her own difficulties and we really wish her all the best..
Yes I am sentimental and sometimes I do see this as a weakness for others to exploit but I can't deny the fact that I am one super sentimental person. When you are trying hard to be so strong outside, you ignored the fact that by doing this, it makes you more vulnerable inside. I understand how being sentimental affects me as a whole and I know it's all about finding an equilibrium. Just so because I know I have the looking at you 10 times, thinking of you 1000times and not letting you know a single thing character, I always end up confusing and contradicting myself even more. As much as I wanna say if you don't intend to stay on in my life, please kindly don't enter in the first place, I can't cos I'm doing the exact same thing. I enter other pple's lives not having the confidence that I can stay on for long. I mean who knows right, who goes around calculating the pros and cons and probability of having a long lasting relationship before befriending new friends?
But frankly I really abhor guessing work, if you really care, don't act as if you don't and when I am finally convinced that you didn't care, you say otherwise. Yes I don't know about others but this irritates me, a lot..
Ohwell don't get me wrong, it's not that someone has offended me or I'm really mad at mercy. But it's more of the thoughts that sparked off because of some recent issues..
I always believe 不要让你在呼的人觉得你不在呼..
It's only right to let pple you care know that you actually care, isn't it so?
Ha, alright time for bed, it's 2:24am already!
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