Tearsareprecious

Been long since I feel so battered.  Back to back courses, including weekends while ensuring I keep up to my work commitments and fitness regime.  I’ve not felt so sore and so emotionally drained.  But it’s times like this that reminded me of my true core.  Of what I value.  Never shunning away from the hard things and when the odds are stacked against me, all the more I will face it head on.  Not for the outcome, but for the fact that 我说到做到.  To again, remind myself every big thing starts from first showing up for ourselves.  是累，但我愿意.

Man, has it already been 4 months?  4 months since taking the big leap of faith to take on a complete different role - to drive AI.  One that I have limited background in, zero network with and many uncertainties about.  But yet, I was somehow bolstered by the prospect of being able to learn something from scratch. It’s no doubt daunting to switch field after 10 years but then again, I was telling myself, this is not new, I’ve done this before, eg did mainstream schooling for 10 years then switch to sports school, then did sports for another 10 years and switch to smth completely non-sports related. Every of this transitions at that point of time was “risky” and I wouldn’t know if I’ve made the right choices. The fact that I turned out fine, I suppose it’s not so much of whether the decision was right, but more of whether I believe in my choice and try my best to maximise my path.  And to ensure that I start this path with my best, I actually did a pep talk via a pri...

In 2023, I’ve wished for 2024 to be one where I could live authentically.  And I did.  Reminiscing the photos in 2024, I realized I’ve been smiling so much more.  The kind of smile that stems from a strong sense of bliss and freedom that I’ve felt this year.  I can’t really put a finger to it.  It could be the blissful feeling knowing that my loved one are healthy and many are charting new chapters in their lives, either pursuing a new path or moving into a new abode. It’s a kind of bliss knowing that everyone is doing well and progressing and I can, too. A bliss knowing that we are and can be, better together.  With this bliss, 2024 has indeed been one where I’ve wandered more and wondered less. Probably another phrase for living more and worrying less. And living more means having the freedom to choose how I wanna lead my life. What kind of work culture I would like to have, the kind of team I would like to hustle and grind with and the type of mates t...

As we start counting down to our big move to the new work building, it also marks the start of our work desk “marie-kondo-ing”. Ploughing through the stacks of handwritten notes, work organizers and many to-dos definitely brought back many memories. Close to 10 years of hard work, of building things from scratch, where technology ain’t as advanced as now. Can’t believe we’ve done so much and now it’s time to chuck them all. Bittersweet but no better way to usher in a better beginning eh? Way of documenting work has changed but I guess knowing our purpose should always be constant? 

02.03.2020 “You can’t heal what you can’t feel” wow 11.03.2020 The heart to do good equates also, to the heart to resist the need to compare. Both are somehow necessary to rise above negativity. Simplifying the why behind my actions really makes things so much easier. It’s never about what I can gain visibly, but what I can contribute. Because through contributing, I’ve already gained immensely. Please remember this chen. 02.05.2020 “Speak truth in such a way that it should be pleasing to others. Never speak truth, which is unpleasant to others. Never speak untruth, which might be pleasant.” Speak unpleasant truths only when you’ve truly understood the person and know that even though the truth may be unpleasant in the short run, it’s good for the person in the long run” So very true, truths behind speaking truths” 17.05.2020 What do you fear at work? I fear being myopic I fear that we get overly concerned by what’s immediately in front of us that we close our minds to what’s out there...

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